Resting Here

(This is the Rocky Mountains driving from Denver to Boulder)

Well, here we are in Denver, Colorado…the "mile-high" city. I’m here with Richard and also having time with Charlotte. She came up to visit with us while I’m here. Here we are at the look-out over Boulder’s beautiful valley with the Rockies behind us. We’ve been having a wonderful visit together.

It’s been lovely being here with Richard and his spiritual family here in Denver and in Boulder. In beginning of my stay, he took me to his meditation group held in one of the apartments in his building, as well as a group in Boulder. We also went to a recital of Eric Schnieder sharing with us the words of Hafiz, Rumi, Kabir and Adyashanti. Here he is along with the work he recited at the end of the program. It’s from Adyashanti…

Save your mentally manufactured tales of

Enlightenment-to-come for someone else’s ears.

The price to enter this love

is your hope for a better future.

We are not a crowd of beggars here.
You and I have been down that long, twisted road
all the way to its end.
Here we do not ask God for favors but instead celebrate the light in each other’s eyes.

So if you are ready to stop denying yourself
your own beauty
you have come to the right place.

Wake up now and praise this day.

When you realize that God’s eyes
are the one’s you are looking out of, and into.

Praise this day –

And with each breath you take
be filled with the golden arc of love
which announces the ending of
your argument with God.

Praise this day
simply because it exists
and sit down now in the warm skin
of your own lap;

for you are home

and it is time to rest

in the merciful light

of your own eyes.

　
I was so moved by this experience with Eric and the Heart-felt way in which he recited these words of Truth. This poem of Adyashanti, in particular, spoke to me deeply.

“It is time to rest…in the merciful light…of your own eyes…”

This brings us to the mid way point of my stay here in Denver and to what is happening that has slowed me down quite a bit.

As most of you know, I have been having a health challenge for some time and actually retired because of this.

While here, in Denver, I was referred to a health center in Boulder, where an evaluation and treatment were very revealing. The facts are… the adrenal system is compromised which affects everything in the body - which has been going on for a long time, evidently. The doctor's recommendation was to stop and not continue my journey as planned. The body is in a healing process right now, needing rest and tender loving care instead of the stress of travel. So, I will be staying on in Denver for a few months with Richard, who has been very kind and generous to provide a space for me.

As you can imagine, this news was not pleasant for me. There was so much that was coming up for me to do…life was now opening up to me and It was bringing me to so many lovely people and beautiful places. It was a “reality check” that I processed through (as we all know how to do) and cleared the space for “what’s so.” I am so grateful for Charlotte and Richard being with me in this, with such love and support.

So, these messages will keep coming to you, but now from more stillness than my usual activity.

Now, there is something that I would like to share with you. It has been revealing itself to me as I’ve been travelling, and it also has to do with this health issue…

While at Ocean, on Vancouver Island, I had lots of time alone to walk along the water and be in Stillness in my room. And, along with the treatments that Carolyn was giving me at that time, there was plenty of opportunity to allow insights to arise in Awareness. One insight came up to share with you that continues to be very significant for me.

Have you seen in your own experience, that when something is very tender to face, we can get busy in our life to cover it up? We are usually not intentional or conscious about it at the time. But, it’s actually a way of getting through the situation, because it was too sensitive to see the truth about it all at once. Know what I mean? Well, I see now something that I didn’t see then … when I booked this "around the world" trip there was something tender that I was covering up.

One facet of this revealed just before leaving Ocean. It was the deep grief that was there in losing my teacher and dear friend, Ramana. In the company of my dear friends there, this was gently uncovered and released.

The other facet of this “seeing through” was revealed here in Denver when the doctor gave me the news about my health situation. She said that it actually began as a child and I have learned to live with it along the way to get by. I developed a survival mechanism to make life work no matter what the limitations. It has fooled me and everyone else around me into thinking I am strong enough to do whatever is set before me. The pattern was unconsciously continued as I controlled the situation and everything appeared to be going well, until I would have another breakdown or illness. This pattern has "gotten me by" for a long time in this life. But now I am so grateful to have my finger on the pulse, and finally work through it.

So, allowing it all to be there, just as it is … I will now take it one step at a time. This time with a full seeing of what is best to allow a full healing to occur. Then, I can continue the rest of this life standing strong and in sound health. There have been so many people who have assisted me in this. And, my "Grace Bubble" is continuing to bring what is needed for this completion.

I’ll keep in touch as to how things are going. Please see the "happy end of the movie" with me…

“A complete rebirthing has occurred of sound health for this body… I am living light and free!”

Like this…

And, this…

The Goddess of Light

　

The journey of the night begins my opening of light.

Into the hands of love I am delivered.

Open arms, open heart, I am yours.

Take me and keep me in your embrace

That I may remember what I have never forgotten.

I know this place – why have I been gone so long?

I am all of you who danced in the summer seasons

To the bounty of the earth mother in spring.

Celebrated women we were then

All our gifts and dreams received and honoured.

I sing and dance to the rhythm of the earth, sky, moon and sun

I am the rhythm I am the dance I am the moon I am the sun.

Receive me again and I will honour you.

Help me, guide me, show me the way.

Christine M. Goyer-Swift

Thank you, my beloved family ... I Love You!